There are many situations you enjoy
like celebrating, having party, walking on the beach,
being with people we love and so on.
However, the painful situations also exist.
Accidents, natural disaster, crimes
Heartbroken and death of our beloved people
This world is cruel,
so you would like to remember
and recall only the joyful experience
again and again.
While you are carelessly suppressing the traumatic experience
into the subconscious mind
like when you hide the food neatly somewhere in your bedroom
so that no one could catch that you have it at night.
How long can you hide your food?
Someday, too much food will push out from the hidden place
from your bed, your desk and your furniture.
People, who entered to your room, could smell bad from it.
You could sense it when it has already been mess on the floor.
The smelly food is like the unpleasant traumatic experience
that you keep suppressing in your subconscious mind.
Someday what you seal away will appear
through your distress for no reason.
Irrational fear, anxiety, hysteria,
imagined paralyses and pain.
That is what the neurological science has observed.
It definitely damage your mental health
but you may get used to it
since the illness has been always with you.
if your illness resulted by the pain you accumulated so far
direct your thought and action.
If your beloved people did something that recall your pain,
you will “overreact” against them.
You have to feel sad
that you hurt people who love you unconsciously.
That is when you finally realise
that you are mentally sick.
Now it is time to clean your room.
Release your repressed memory
that is full by the past you cannot exist.
Recall your painful situations you has sealed away.
Reexperience them emotionally and intellectually.
Understand those situation in the healthy way
and you will be freed from your own old pain.
That is why psychoanalysis
hypnosis, trance, psychodrama,
or even reflexive coaching exist
to help you free from your past.
Those methods will not help you
since you are still “carelessly” suppressing what you hate.
If you experience the tragedy again,
will you suppress it, get ill from it,
hurt your beloved people
and be heal again and again?
Awareness is needed,
to realize the existence of pain.
Instead of sealing it away,
response it here and now.
so you don’t have to carry the past like the zombie.
you don’t have to remember anything.
You are free everyday.
You live your life every second.
Just be responsible.
Just be awake.